I got the results of march's tumor marker test and it was now 109. This is high for me. I talked to the nurse at the oncologist's office and she said the doctor was not that concerned and would see me in May. I explained about a new pain under my ribs and it did not seem to make a difference. I got off the phone and pushed the panic bottom. I also spent a day with my head under the covers in an all day depression. Randy periodically checked on me and tried to be sympathetic and encouraging. I so rarely let myself feel scared or depressed, but today I needed to wallow in self pity.
Time for a second opinion. I have an appointment at the Dana Farber Cancer Center on April 7th. My girls are going with me. Dana Farber has a wonderful reputation and just the act of making an appointment with one of their oncologists gives me hope. I have great respect for my local oncologist, but I think it is important to go to one of the major cancer centers to cover all your treatment basics.
Not quite so panicky.
Hi Mom! I'm glad you're continuing to write. Your posts were so entertaining that I didn't want the descriptions of your adventures to end! I'm also happy that I can accompany you to Dana-Farber. It has a wonderful reputation and I'm sure they will have some answers and advice.
ReplyDeleteWallow in self-pity as much as you want--you deserve to feel any emotion you want to feel. And, know that your family and friends will support you. I will also gladly donate Wrigley for comic relief. He may smell like a dirty gym sock, but he's good company. I think we should bring him to Boston. Twelve hours in a Prius with a moldy animal sounds like fun!
Love you!! Please keep journaling!
Jessica and I continue to read your wonderful writing; keep the faith. We look forward to seeing you on Monday for post-Easter Easter dinner.
ReplyDeleteLOVE YOU.